I’m jumping back in on this blog. For me, it’s an act of resistance to everything that makes me feel small and insignificant. How, you might be thinking?
I doubt my words matter. I let time go by. I don’t publish to my blog. More time goes by. I feel awkward. Real writers publish. Real bloggers publish regularly with posts that are just the right length—to get noticed by Google, I need to write blog posts of at least 2000 words. I find ample excuses to not write. The doubt stays.
This pattern has repeated itself many times over in my life.
I don’t see a friend for a time. I am busy with the big and little things that make a life. I don’t reach out because “maybe she doesn’t miss me.” Before long, I’ve lost a meaningful relationship.
I have a friend who moved away from Ithaca before I knew she was leaving. I think about her often. There wasn’t anything “wrong” between us—I just didn’t do my part in growing and nourishing our friendship.
I can choose to reach out, start over, and try again—with a friend, a job search, a child, a blog.
So, here’s to second and third chances, or as many as we need to not give up on who and how we want to be.
Need a second chance somewhere in your life? You can start over and try again.
I have written to my friend. I hope she answers but even if not, I am smiling as I write these words.
I truly feel your angst, you’ve reached out you’re a strong person. Congratulations
Keep them coming Chris!
Thank you for the reminder that each day is a new opportunity to begin again. A day to take a step towards the life you want.
Thank you for sharing this!
“I am busy with the big and little things that make up a life.”
That resonates with me, along with the doubt and awkwardness. Ive been working on “relaxing and releasing” in the moment of stress/uncertainty.
Yes! Thanks for this reminder, Fran.
I meant Kris!!! Hate spell wreck
I figured! Thanks, Lee!
Yes, that resonates with me too! Thanks for sharing, Kris.
So hard to get moving forward. This resonates with me. Thanks, Kris.
Thanks for letting me know, Mariah. 🙂
Kris, you have always been such an inspiration to me. Your words truly resonate with me. Thanks for the reminder that every day is a new day to start over.
Smiles!
Love it Kris! I am thinking of a relationship where its time to start over. Inspired by you!!!